Saturday, October 11, 2008

Well, it's been a few days since I've posted. Lots of stress at our house. As you all know, Ralph has been laid off since last November and we are starting to really get worried about him a new job. There really doesn't seem to be a whole lot out there. To make a long story short, Ralph starts truck driving school on Monday. We're still hoping to hear that the state of Michigan will pay for this training as Ralph is considered a displaced worker since Merillat is closing completely. Through the school, he filled out about 22 applications for jobs after his graduation. He has had about 10 offers of work once he passes the class. I have mixed feelings about all this. I'm worried about him being on the road and having to be gone for days at a time. I am praying that he will be able to be home frequently. Also, this is affecting my job because I work 12 hour night shifts and am almost an hour away from home, so I may have to find another job where I can be with the boys at night. I can't feel good about leaving them alone that long and being that far away. Please pray for us over the next few weeks as we make decisions about both of our jobs. I have a hard time leaving this in God's hands, I feel constantly anxious about how this will all work out. I pray and try to leave it with Him, but soon am worrying again. This last year has been sooooo difficult and I want to be where God wants us to be. ( Sarah Watters, if you're reading this, thanks so much for your post with Chonda Pierce, it really spoke to me. I needed that, too!!! Keep looking up!!!) I enjoy my work in the ER, and I dread starting a new job, but obviously my family comes first. I'd really like to be off night shift anyways.

As I type this, Bob is laying behind me snoring. It is such a peaceful sound almost like a purr, it always makes me feel safe and cozy somehow. Isn't it interesting, how such a simple thing like that, God can use to make you feel more at peace. Sometimes, I feel like I just can't take another minute of all this......the constant worry, and I know I need to just be still ( like Bob, who doesn't have a care in the world cuz he trusts we will take care of him) and let God work!!! I mean, really, does he look worried to you? lol

I'm sorry for the rambling, it helps to let it out. Please, whisper a prayer for us when you think of it and thanks!!!!!


Sarah said...

Just wanted you to know I will be praying for you. We've had decisions we've had to make this year and some we didn't know how we would ever make. Leaving things in God's Hands is not easy for me at all. I have to have all my ducks in a row and when they aren't I'm like a crazy woman (who knows maybe I am anyway LOL) Keep trusting Jesus...Where God guides He WILL provide!!! Prayin for ya!

Jess & Melanie Heer said...

Well, trust me, we are feeling the pain too! It seems like we are just trying to keep our heads above water! I can't believe how terrible things are right now, it's something I've never had to worry about, and now we are feeling the pinch! I'm SO THANKFUL for Jess' good job! He is truly blessed!
I hope all works out for Ralph and this truck driving deal...that will be a huge adjustment for all of you! God will take care of you guys though! He won't give you more than you can handle, REMEMBER!!! Sometimes it hard to do that!!
Love you!

Sharalyn said...

Beth, I feel some of your pain and worry too. I lost my job almost a year ago now, and it really "hurts". With Austin in college, any of his expenses were paid for out of my income, so that has been a huge concern for not only us, but Austin also. I hate that he has to worry about that... but God has provided. Austin has been able to work security to help with his room & board, but that still leaves us paying some out of pocket monthly. I've also put off having surgery (that my doc recommended a year ago!) because James' insurance isn't as good as mine was.
BUT... we aren't going hungry, we have a roof over our heads and LP to keep us warm. So even though a lot of us have had to make some major adjustments over the past year or two, I know God has and will take care of us! Hang in there Beth. Just be the best mom you can be, with God's help. He knows your situation and has promised to "give you the desires of your heart". He knows you'd rather spend more time with your boys!!